I decided to start a new blog because I have been needing the inspiration and time to think about a few things that lie ahead in my near future.
So here goes...
I have an extremely hard time working a 9-5 job in front of a computer with a headset on offering "customer service" to customers who mostly just want to scream at me and ask for my supervisor all day long, 5 days a week. I don't think it's purely just getting yelled at that bothers me, there are really a lot of reasons why I'm uncomfortable with my job and quite honestly shocked whenever I think about how long I've been there. Hey, it's a job... Right? I work for a company that sells products that work for some people and don't for others. I'm not the biggest fan of the vagueness from the representatives on the sales floor since that is one of the main reasons our customers call back so upset. People don't listen to what they're signing up for and I have a hard time trusting that the sales agents really are giving them all of the information they need. It is exhausting hearing the same complaints from different people all day long and things never change nor will they. It's just how the company works and hey, it gives me a job. That is my biggest problem. I am working for a company where I feel like I have to fight people all day long who I shouldn't be having to fight with. That's the way all customer service jobs (at least in call centers) work and that's how come they are almost always hiring and staying afloat.
Why do I stay at my job? Well, there's the obvious:
-Rent
-Gas
-Utilities
-Food
-Fun
I find myself every almost to the point of depression every Sunday night thinking about going back to work the next day FOR A WHOLE 5 DAYS!!! Boo hoo! I don't know if I am missing the part in my brain that is okay with settling down, going straight to college out of high school and working the next however many years at a job that just pays the bills but no matter what new approach I take I just cannot make myself commit to going in to debt just to graduate and nobody will hire me. Plus I cannot stick to what I want to do for the rest of my life. The main thing that discourages me is "will I be able to make a living off of this profession?" It is sad that the thought even factors into what I will do with my life which is why I feel that I need to get on my feet, save up some money, sell anything that really isn't a necessity and explore.
It seems like some people just know what they want to do with their life or what their purpose is. I went to Cosmetology school and became licensed because I like to make people feel great. Is that what I want to do for the rest of my life? Not so much... I'd love to be a high school counselor or someone to be there for teenagers during that transformational time in their life. Of course you don't know who you are when you're 18 years old but I'd like to be a person that helps to encourage self exploration and expression at a younger age during a time when people are afraid to. Anyway, I want to help people. I feel like my purpose in life is to help in whatever way I can. I don't care about money or status I just want to travel and help people in need. Whether it be volunteering around Australia with Jeff helping on farms or helping out in an orphanage in Africa, I just want to be there.
Jeff and I have a trip to Jamaica planned this December which will be more of a vacation but it will be my first stamp in my passport and first real taste of new culture besides NYC. After that we already have plans for our backpacking trip to Australia set for fall of 2012. We plan to go for however long we want to, whether that be for 1 month or 6. This is why I am keeping with my job that I may not agree with. Most people, even supervisors, at my work are only there for a timeframe of transition or just needing a job. I will work there and do my best until I'm off to do what I feel I am here for.
So here's to motivation, dedication and inspiration! It's going to be a long year of saving but the next step will be more than worth it.
